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Moving off!

guiltedge — Tue, 10 Aug 2010 16:22:28 +0000

Moving to tumblr :)

Keeping this space so that some day when I grow up I will read all these posts and laugh at myself :O
Haha. Ask me for the adddddddd :)

Sing a song for Singapore!

guiltedge — Mon, 09 Aug 2010 17:57:06 +0000

Happy 45th birthday Singapore!!

I enjoyed the national day parade and my long weekend! Did stuff that I love to do, relaxed, nua-ed and even did a facial! Happy much. Been eating quite abit this weekend and I’m so going to burn it all off during the 3 weeks break. I hope I remember what I say! Its been good being able to sleep till I wake up naturally and not because of my alarm clock. I think I kind of paid off all my sleep debts already..

3 weeks break will not seem like a holiday but I’m gonna live everyday like it is one. :D Set out some stuff that I wanna do but haven’t been doing for quite awhile. Shall do them all this holidays! Dyed my hair randomly just now because my Mum had spare hair dye.. I think we do the funniest things sometimes.

I could really use a wish right now.

ASSIGNMENT OUT.

guiltedge — Fri, 06 Aug 2010 16:15:06 +0000

I suddenly feel like I’ve aged.
Body’s aching all over especially my hands/wrists. Why? :(

YOG Break has arrived!
I literally leapt for joy when I submitted the LAST group report for this sem. :) We pulled through! We really did! So proud of my dear awesome class for surviving this short yet very long semester of hard work. No longer BZSE students, now BZSE interns-to-be! :)

Although we still have amendments to the Projmgt Group Project, I must say life has been so entertaining with GIOBF the awesome group that walked with me through the countless group projects! Must take photoooooooooo, why we always no chance! :O But still, I really enjoyed the crazy, grouchy, tired and happy times together as a group. No regrets! :D

Went for the Watoto Kids Choir Concert at Esplanade earlier. I thought I’d be really tired throughout, but the kids really performed superbly well. Reminded me of the dream that I used to have. The dream of helping disadvantaged kids.. Someday I will live that dream. :) Stefanie Sun was also at the concert and I thought her version of Hey Jude was nice ;)

Okay idk what I’m rambling already! Tired.
Shall continue tomorrow with my list of To-Dos for the coming 3 weeks break! :)

Day 2, down!

guiltedge — Tue, 03 Aug 2010 16:03:55 +0000

2nd day of the week, and I’m glad my breath is still with me.
In the Lord is where my strength lies ;)

Rather unbelievable how so many things can happen in a short span of two days, how many lessons I’ve learnt and how much thoughts have ran through my mind. Been finding the time to sit down in proper to note these crazy thoughts down, and now’s the time.

I went to visit her yesterday, somebody I only had the chance to meet this year since the past 19 years of my life. I don’t know why even though we were so distant, everytime I popped by to visit her, I’ll never feel awkward or uncomfortable, just watching her and listening to her speak to us would make me feel like she has been around me for a very long time. I hoped I had the authority, the ability to do something to lessen the pain. But the only thing I could do best was to let her know I really cared. I’m really going to pray.

The last week of ‘academically’ in school and all the reflections that we are doing actually reminds me to reflect what BZSE means to me for the past 2 and a half years of study, what every single thing that each lecturer taught us.. maybe someday i’d do a bzse reflection. :) Just not this week. Hah!

TOTALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO NATIONAL DAY!
Passed by the Padang the other night and I was super in awe of the deco and the setting that I keep telling Smelly to go and see. Haha. Don’t ask me why I am so happy about National Day, really. Its just a ‘since young i’m like that’ kind of thing. I just love the SAF parades, the fighter planes, the parachuters, the lame dances and the fireworks. Although its almost the same every year, I enjoy it every year. :)

Remembering my promise.

guiltedge — Thu, 29 Jul 2010 18:49:35 +0000

Downed a can of nescafe mocha and I’m really good to go.
Been awake for quite awhile past my bedtime, and its been a crazy day. Learnt how to really cope with things that I dont like which comes my way, remembering my promise to God versus the things that I want, and lastly.. being understanding. Maybe I should stop keeping to myself. But this is the reason why I’m more of a phlegmatic than sanguine right? :)

Last week of school and also the craziest. Looking my own schedule makes me feel faint. Need to recharge over the weekends!

A thousand disappearing acts.

guiltedge — Mon, 26 Jul 2010 15:31:12 +0000

I dont know what to do.

Been 3 nights of consistently thinking and thinking before I go to sleep. Everyday I think, and everyday new things pop up for me to solve. I really dont know what to do.

I typed a whole lot of words in here.
But I figured none of it made any sense.
So I deleted it, just like how I am slowly deleting all the thoughts in my mind.
I just need a clear mind, a clear mind to live. Why has it become harder and harder?

Surrender.

guiltedge — Thu, 22 Jul 2010 15:18:26 +0000

Had a short chat with smelly today and it made me think of what it really meant to surrender every segment of my life to You, knowing and believing that You’re gonna be in control.

How important it is to surrender it all completely to You and how you actually go about doing it. Sometimes I think I really did trust in God and let Him take over already, but I still get trapped in a situation. So, what does it really mean to let go and let God? Still learning, still experiencing so much more in life.

Its really so comforting to know that God is the same God, no matter what happens to me. :)

Better than this.

guiltedge — Mon, 19 Jul 2010 13:13:21 +0000

I always get reminded that my life is never as bad as it seems.

Even when the worst things happen to me at the worst times,
Even when I get so broken and disappointed,
Even when I have only $72 till the end of the month,
Even when every piece of the sky cant seem to turn from grey to blue…

I am still blessed. I know I am.
And everything else can get so much better than this.

Protected: Second thoughts.

guiltedge — Sun, 18 Jul 2010 16:44:26 +0000

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My shield.

guiltedge — Thu, 15 Jul 2010 19:14:54 +0000

My laptop has decided to take a break from working so hard for me day and night, right when I needed it to study and do tutorials and my great awesome project. It decided to go on a restart spree and keep on restarting despite going under ‘Recovery’. Guess its really time it took a rest. Hopefully it doesn’t crash doesn’t die and keeps all my files intact. Totally didn’t do backup :(

But still, thankful though dear fujitsu is half-gone. Mom let me use her laptop to do my work and allowed me to bring it to school tomorrow just in case fujitsu cant be revived. :) God. is. really. Sovereign, in every situation, big or small.

Just reminders for myself that used to be on my desktop screen incase i lose my sanity when fujitsu dies.
- Progress on DiD project, this week
- PM project, week 16
- CORGOV, next week, READ THE BOOK
- DPM video, poster, direct mailer, do video next week
- Knee guard
- Sunday lunch
- Comms Ministry
- School, school, school.

Amen.