So long, farewell

I think i have to give this hobby up for the next two or three weeks.
Well the passion began with you and i think it may end cause of you as well.
Sigh. I’ll miss biking. ):

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Battlefield.

I just want to wake up tomorrow and all that has happened will be just a vague memory – dont really remember it, yet it is still there. I think thats the crazy thing about girls. Want, yet dont really want. :]

Grace baby encouraged me to pray today.
I knew I had to pray sincerely, opening up to God alone, letting Him be the center of all the worries and troubles that I have held tight in my heart. I want to pray. and talk to You. and let You know how everything aches everyday. Ho. Ho. HO.

Godbrother wx finally resurfaced on Earth today! Super happy to see his message
Truly, it has been nearly a century since we met up. Hahahaha. Only thing that made me smile widely today. (:

Honestly, I dont really want to get involved with all that issues….

But I’ve already got one leg in.
God bless us.

Help me pray.

Maybe because I wear my heart on my sleeves, thats why I become so predicable, and so easily found out by people. I really am broken this time. So stupid to be landing myself in some kind of situation that I never wanted to be. I am there, because of something else, not because my heart told me to do so. Honestly she is right, I am still asleep, letting the world pull me along instead of leading my kind of life. Where did all that fervor to lead people on in Christ go? Where did all that love I had in serving people go? Just where, did my focus on God go?

Its scary. So scary to lose touch with God. Every week, I head to church no longer expecting to hear from God. Cos my heart feels busy and heavy, burdened with so many thoughts about the people more than my love for God. I wanna find everything back, but its not working. Will I forget how to pray? Will I no longer know what God has in plan for me?

Help me pray. Or pray alongside with me.
I dont want to lose myself, and lose God along the way.
Thank you.

You tell me.

i dont really know what to write from here.
Its just one of those times where you have so much in mind,
that you get too caught up and dont know what you should be typing.

Had a new haircut!
And its a nice kind of bob. Just that its a little too short. The guy thinks i’ll look awesome if i rebond, and then he started praising me so much that i flew high up into the skies for awhile.. he even said i should highlight red! :O the power of advertising.

TGIF, i have a crazy weekend ahead.

Thanks for overwriting the bitter part of memories with sweeter ones. (:

Drowning.

.. in school work.

Want to drown in God’s love instead. But like, in such tiring moments.. All we yearn for is some comfort, and seldom look to God, instead at man, for it. Big mistake. Still, thank God for being there. Always, even more frequent than your closest friend. Barely midway through the assignment. I know I’m not giving my best, yet I dont have the motivation and energy to push myself more to reach for the best. Sigh. Where did all the motivation in doing well go to? Prioritize.

Honestly, all of our statuses now on facebook are like…

CANT WAIT FOR THE WEEKENDS.

My weekend is so crazy packed, waiting for me to unveil it. But its so near, yet so far.

Bzse 2010

In the blink of an eye, here we are in 2010, about to finish Year 2 and moving on to Year 3 where the real life starts. Time is flying by so fast that I am so amazed. It felt like just yesterday that we were hopping around preparing for the first BZSE forum. Many things changed, relationships with people.. still, the only constant thing here is change. Surely there are many things that are dearly missed, yet if the old never goes, how can the new come? (:

Time to bumm back to reality.
Haven’t even done my work yet. Dieeeeeee, still need to prepare for cell tomorrow. :O

Lord, You lead me, the light of my path.

Thirsting for You

You will seek Me and find Me when you seek Me with all your heart.
Jeremiah 29:13

Speechless

Heart or mind?
I don’t always get the chance to choose.
But most of the time, my heart rules.

Blame it on the emo songwriters.
But! I got to sort out many of my thoughts today on the bus rides home, with the emo-est songs ever playing on my ipod. It is strange, but for me, it is only during such emo and quiet moments that I really set my thoughts straight, be sure of what I want, and find back my focus in life. Haha. This is my special strength

I am never sure what I want is what God wants.
But one thing for sure, He never left me despite what horrible situations I am in. In troubles, in confusion, in happiness, God’s here. He’s watching me lovingly. I can never explain that exciting form of assurance I always get. Cos… it is just so LEGEND… (wait for it!) DARY! Haha!

I am feeling great! Though the healing process is still around.. 1/3 through, I know I am going to make it. Because I am awesome. So awesome. Shit I am highly influenced by How I Met Your Mother. HAHAHA.

Court visit tomorrow! Want to dress up like a future lawyer wanna-be. Lol!

That I’ll never talk again
And I’ll never love again
I’ll never write a song
Won’t even sing along
I’ll never love again.

21 Hour Journey of Faith :)

Woo! Back from Bikers Siol Trip 3!
It was indeed a 21 hour-long journey of faith and belief. And also a journey of bonding! Stuffs happened midway when we were heading to Punggol. Didnt really destroy our morale, okay maybe mine for awhile but I was back to hyperactive mode soon after! Good Morning! (inside joke!)

Seriously so much happened.
Must specially thank dear jia huan here! She and her family is the best! Really kind of saved our day by providing us tools and her bro waking up though hes super tired to check if our bike can be saved. THANK GOD FOR FRIENDS (:

I fell, I picked my self up, I improved alot on my bike skills.
Haha. But in return I have loads of bruises and injuries. Must wear jeans for the next 2 weeks already!

Thankssss to all my dear brothers for taking loads of care of me to ensure I’m safe, though in the end I still ended up badly bruised. We all thanked God that those obstacles were actually blessings in disguise. In every situation, the Lord proved that He was always present in our presence.

Off to bed! Sunday tomorrow!